yesterday

Hi there friends. I didn't feel much like posting yesterday. You see, October 3rd was my old sister Michelle's birthday. She would have been 42 if she were still alive. It's been 10 years since we lost her. I'm not sure if you ever get over loss like that. Instead you learn to live with the loss everyday. It's something you carry around with you for the rest of your life. As time passes, you stop crying when people ask you if you have any siblings and you learn to live like a regular person again. But that hole in your heart is always there. It's just a part of you now. All things considered, yesterday was a good day. I missed my sister but I tried to smile and think of good memories. I baked a chocolate chocolate cake for her (more on that this week). And my sweet boyfriend surprised me with a deep tissue massage. It's so good to feel loved. And on that note, I'll wish you a delightful week.

p.s. I'm obsessed with this photo of my sister. The plaid, that cute barrette, how her tiny hands are folded just so. I didn't know her then (she was 9 when I was born) but my goodness was she ever a beautiful child. Not surprising in the least though, she was a gorgeous woman. Here's a thought; squeeze the ones you love this week if you can. It just makes good sense. (and if you can't squeeze, call!)