I know I've been gone for awhile and I apologize for my absence. My relationship with my boyfriend of four years, Anthony, ended one week ago. My world has been turned upside down and I am absolutely devastated. If anything, I thought I would be writing to you of our engagement sometime this summer. But things did not work out how I thought they would. I'm picking up the pieces slowly and trying to process how much my life has just changed. I am thankful that I just wrapped up a freelance gig so I can take some time to try and figure out what to do next. I am thankful to have so many wonderful people who love me and are begging to do something for me. But I am most thankful for my own strength, resilience and natural optimism. I know everything will be okay. I have retreated to Atlanta for the time being, under the loving care of my mom. And the next few weeks will be about being around people who love me. I'm going to San Francisco tomorrow to see one of my best friends in the whole world so we can laugh and cry and be together. I also have a trip to Ireland planned to see my sis and then two other best friends are coming to see me in Atlanta for our annual ladies weekend. Posts will be spotty but I will be sure to share some of my amazing travels with you.
This was not the ending I had imagined. I poured everything I had into our relationship and to have this be the outcome just doesn't seem fair. But, then again, life is rarely fair. And it almost never works out in the way you thought it would. But if you can find the strength to roll with what is thrown at you, you have the opportunity to come out wiser and better on the other side. Oh friends, I can't wait to get there.
(photo via, quote via Gwyneth Paltrow)